Seeing Her Face...that was a GREAT Mother's Day Gift!

WOW!!!  It's 2:40am on Mother's Day morning and I just woke up from THE BEST dream I think I've ever had in my lifetime!  In this dream, Tony, the boys, and I had the computer outdoors with us when we received an e-mail with information about our daughter.  The great thing about this e-mail was that WE ACTUALLY SAW HER FACE and were given her full name.  I still remember her face so clear and every part of her name.  Although I think we've picked a name for her already, when I heard her name for the first time and it rolled off my tongue, I said to my husband, "I don't want to change her name.  Let's keep it exactly as it is."  It really was a spectacular dream.  I fell in love with her instantly.

What a wonderful, wonderful gift for me this Mother's Day.  I said it once and I have to say it again...It was an absolutely beautiful dream.  Many times, what I dream about is based on if my husband left the t.v. on before he fell asleep...and I assure you, I've had some crazy dreams in the past.  But last night, he fell asleep downstairs and when I woke up, our bedroom was pitch black and peaceful so there was no television influence this time.

You know, I don't know for sure the end result of how this adoption journey will turn out for our family.  While I'm praying, praying, praying that we will be blessed to have the opportunity to open our home to a little girl, only God has the answer to that right now.  While her face was simply...oh my goodness beautiful and I could just eat her up....if we are blessed at the end of this journey with a daughter, I'm not sure if it will be the same face from my dream early this morning.  But as Oprah can say....What I know for sure is that this dream that has me up typing at almost 3am, was part of an amazing Mother's Day gift and this mama couldn't ask for anything better.

If you've been reading my blog for a little while now, you know I love music and that I often share videos with my blog posts.  Steven Curtis Chapman's song "When Love Takes You In" captures part of what I'm feeling so perfectly this morning.  Basically, he's singing to an orphaned child and in some of the verses says:

And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever
cause this love to lose its hold

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in

As I sit here typing and crying, I'm just overwhelmed by this gift called love that God graces us with if we are really open to being vulnerable to love.  Being vulnerable to love means that you are willing to risk looking foolish and sacrifice the safety of your emotions to love someone else.  Little girl, I am so in love with you already.  While you're not growing in my tummy but your other mommy's right now, my heart grows in love each day for you.

I tell you, my heart is just totally broken in a very good way for a little girl that I don't know yet but wow, tonight, it was so nice to go to dreamland and get a little piece of her.  Happy Mother's Day to you my friends!

By the way, in case you were curious, here's the song....

...and when you have time, PLEASE listen to this clip from Steven Curtis Chapman's testimony about their adoption.  It's a little long but it is so worth it. The song he references at the end of this clip is the one above.