"" Life A Bit Sweeter: Pretenders

Friday, May 28, 2010

Pretenders

I remember when Tony and I first started dating, he took me to a professional basketball game.  In fact, I think it was around the time when the Washington Bullets were becoming the Washington Wizards.  Well, I have never been into sports but Tony was a HUGE sports fan.  Being the sports fan that he is, he invited me to a game.  Well, let's just say I desperately wanted to impress him.  In the middle of the game, he decided that he would go get us a soda and slice of pizza.  I said no problem.  Well somehow, in my air-brained brilliance, I decided that I would pretend that I was following the game.  It must have been from the corner of my eye that I saw he was approaching our seat section again.  In seeing that I had to do something to make him think this little mama knew something about the game.  Well, all of a sudden every body stood up and started cheering and so I did too!  I mean I was rooting and pumping my fist and he saw me.  I knew I was in with him....I mean I had it down UNTIL he reached our seat and said, "What happened?"  Oh my goodness!  I was devastated because I didn't have an answer.  I never calculated in my little quick plan that I would have to keep this charade going....I mean, who told him he could ask me questions!!!  LOL

That experience has taught me well that it is important to be who you are and let people see that in you.  As we approach our home study visits this weekend, I know that these visits are no different.  No matter how bad we want to make a 'good impression' on our social worker and no matter how badly we want this adoption to go through, we have to be ourselves.  We believe God chose US, not our stand-ins or understudies, to go through this journey.  Already, we've had to face our fears of having to be totally vulnerable in our biographies.  There's always the question of, even as we are children, 'Will they still like me if I show them the real me?"  Whether you're dating a man/woman, applying to get into college, or going through the adoption process, the answer has to be....It doesn't matter.  This is who I am.  What God has for me is for me.

The funny thing is that after all of that basketball drama and taking down my mask and showing him who I really was, Tony still chose me.  And you know what, this girl still doesn't know a lick about sports!

Here's a song that absolutely makes me happy every time I hear it and reminds me that I'm okay just the way I am with all of my bumps, bruises, and mess-ups...and in all of that God still loves me....

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me


Free To Be Me

Francesca Battistelli | MySpace Music Videos

4 comments:

cateyesmd said...

WOW, isn't it amazing how we can take a current life situation and reflect back on a past situation and SEE our growth. One of my favorite passages of scriptures is Jer. 29:11-13

"11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."

God had a plan for you and Tony way back then and HIS PURPOSE is being manifested EVEN NOW!

Thank you for being REAL and showing not only the family, but the WORLD, especially Ethiopia, what's BEHIND the mask, which is a person who has so much love to give, truth to share and a heart HUGE enough to take another in.

Love you guys sooooo much!! ~ Shelly

LIfe A Bit Sweeter (Michelle) said...

Shelly, that was oh so sweet. It really moved my heart in such a special way. Thank you so much for your wisdom over the years and ALL of the encouragement that you've given me. It's really helping me to become more like Christ and helps me so often to take the high dive towards what He calls me to do.

hugs and kisses!
me

MamaMimi said...

Hi Michelle! Found your blog from Kristi J's blog. Loving it! I love this post, and I love that song too! It's so refreshing to know that even if we wanted to pretend around God, HE knows the real us, so what's the point? And like you said - He loves us, flaws and all! Thanks for the great post.
P.S. I'm clueless when it comes to sports too.

LIfe A Bit Sweeter (Michelle) said...

Hi MamaMimi!
Thanks for stopping by. Well said!!! Looking forward to following your journey and praying God's best for your yard sale!

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